February: fragments 40 - 42

40
at French Bay I sit on the seat
dedicated to Edith May Ransome
another Edith May not you mother
surviving uneasily in your rest-home

today I wanted to take you out
paint your house, fill it full
of my furniture & look after you
forever
my frustration with other possibilities
too extreme to ignore

but you are too difficult, too demanding
& I would fail there also

41
new start
very definitely new
& not you my dear
not you

42
depends on whether you
want triple bottom line
or sustainability